Guilty but annoyed.

Yes, that's how I currently feel.

Alan comes by so often that whenever I want one day to myself and with only my family, the chance is 0%. I don't think I can tell him that. There will be misunderstanding. Sometimes I just wish he doesn't come by for a few days. I'm just so tired of him. Yes he's my sister's boyfriend and all that but Gawd, he doesn't have to come by EVERYDAY. EVERY FUCKING DAY!

My sister's such a clingy whore... =[
It annoys me everytime he comes by now but I feel bad for feeling so. =_= I don't mind him but sometimes I want some time to myself... Without worrying about him barging in. Sometimes he just does but I don't like the fact that he just barged in without my green light. He just knocks [which is okay] and open the door. I mean... come ooonnnn.... go somewhere else with my sister or something!!

;_;
I need to rant... because these few days I've been ignoring him but I feel bad so I made myself talk to him. =<

I pitied him because he's with my sister. Other than being a clingy whore and a bitch, she's also an attention whore. D: If he said something to her to teach her things she'll start saying by oh he doesn't love her and etc... Gawd, I salute Allan for having such such huge patience but if it was me, I don't think I can last with her for a week. =/

She's annoying. She tends to fight a lot. Annoying bitch... And well, I just need some privacy... A PURE PRIVACY. Other than that my mum has been complaining to me how much they spent for him. I don't think we can afford buying food for him all the time. It's like having another family member with us. And whenever my mum asked him to eat her cooking he'll be reluctant but still eats - but not a lot but when we bought food, he finished it all. -_- Which is... again... annoying.

Besides, my dad gave him RM200 because he came here saying he wanted to buy a new phone but he had no money. It's not like he asked but my dad actually gave him RM200. An outsider... RM200. I'm not jealous... it's just unbelievable. I swear if Allan is his son, I think I'll be cast aside like trash.

I told him if he has a son, he won't love me. He said no, it'll be equal... but I shot back saying that he said that now because he doesn't have a son.

Which is true.